*ME* (^____^)\/!~: insomnia

Wednesday, 18 May 2011

insomnia

i think insomnia was my best fren as well as an enemy too. she play my memories like a film to keep me from my sleep. the horrors of my life unfold as i sit here in the dark.look at all the sorrow that i've felt and all the anger that i should have delt . the fear.. the pain and insecurity that drives me near the edge. something deep inside of me that cannot make amends. my stomach clenches .. my heart beats fast! and tears well in my eyes. why won't it stop? why can't i rest? let me sleep and dream tonight so i can find some peace. but morning will come soon and these thoughts will never cease!

may 18/11 wednesday_2.34am

^_____^ peace!~

you eat, you're fat. you don't eat, you're a freak. you drink,you're an alcoholic. you don't drink, you're a pussy. you read,you're a nerd. you don't read, you're stupid.you tell a secret, you're an attention seeker. you don't tell a secret, you're still an attention seeker. you let someone in, you're easy. you don't let someon in, you are too uptight. you smoke,you think you're cool. you don't smoke, you're a loser. you've had sex, you're a slut. you haven't had sex, you're a frigid little b**ch. you wear make up, you're a slag. you don't wear makeup, you are ugly. YOU CAN'T PLEASE or choose ANYONE. EVER.