COFFEE PLUS GARAM??

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aku jumpa dia kat satu party.. dia seorang yang pemalu.. seorang yang simple je... and.. tak dinafikan.. dia ada rupa juga la.. ok la... good looking.. but no one was paying attention to him. berbeza dengan aku.... boleh dikatakan zaman kegemilangan la.. menonjol dan menjadi rebutan di kalangan lelaki.

he has nothing special.. dan nampak sangat memboringkan..... tapi... pada akhir party malam tu... dia invite aku untuk duduk dan minum kopi dengannya.. aku sangat terkejut san tak sangka.. tapi... oleh kerana nak jaga standard lah.. nak look polite.. so aku janji akan minum kopi dengan mamat pendiam tu. so... kami pun exchange phone number.

after two days.. saya dapat satu panggilan telepon.. ingat siapa... mamat pendiam tu la. eeiii.. da janji apa boleh buat.. so seperti yang saya janjikan.. lepas jak abis waktu pejabat, kami pun jumpa kat kedai kopi.. mamat tu nervous sangat lah... nak cakap apa pun susah.. pokoknya.. kalau aku duduk lama sikiit kat sana mesti boring gila nak mampos. argghhh...lepas half and hour dok ngan mamat tu... aku da rasa sangat tak selesa da ni.. ditanya sepatah... dijawab sepatah... betul buang masa lah. abis tu aku pun da nak minta diri da ni....

" boleh tak saye balik dulu?"

tapi suddenly... mamat tu panggil waitress...

"yes da nak chaow dah ni"(gerutuh dalam hati).

"boleh bagi saya garam tak? saya nak letak dalam kopi la." kata daniel.

aku da heran sangat da ni. orang kat sekeliling semua tengo mamat tu..... muka da turm merah da. what a strange guy. dan dengan selamba tu je dia bubuh garam tu kat dalam kopi.. kacau dan hirup. OH MY GOD... mamat ni da gila ye?

" hey... awak kenapa letak garam dalam kopi? awak ni pelik lah." aku yang heran ni pun tak segan silu lagi bertanya.

" waktu kecik2 dulu saya tinggal kat dekat laut lah.. saya suka main kat pantai.. saya suka rasa air laut tu.. so everytime saya minum kopi dgn garam ni..saya boleh rasa air laut tu sama macam air kopi ni.. buat saya rindu masa kecik2 dulu.. rindu kat kampung halaman dan kat orang tua yang masih menetap kat sana. saya rindu lah dengan mereka". kata daniel.

aku nampak sebutir cahaya jernih keluar dari mata mamat tu(nangis). aku terharu lah... tu perasaan tulus ikhlas yang lahir dari hati daniel. daniel mesti seorang yang penyayang.. rindukan kampung halaman.. dan ibu bapa. dia seorang yang bertanggungjawap! so.. aku pun start becakap dengan dia. cakap pasal faraway hometome.. pasal family.. dan macam2 lah.

satu cerita dan permulaan yang baik dalam persahabatan kami. so kami pun kerap keluar dating.. dari kawan.. ke hubungan percintaan. makin lama kenal dengan daniel.. aku sedar yang daniel ni... ada semua ciri2 lelaki idaman aku. daniel seorang yang baik hati,panyayang, undestanding and caring. daniel.. aku da jatuh cinta dengan daniel. dia tu baaaaiiiikk sangat.. sehari bagaikan setahun berjauhan. thanks to salty coffee.. dan cerita ni sama jak macam cerita cinta indah yang lain2. alarh... macam cerita donggeng pula! ehehe... tuan puteri da jumpa da dengan putera raja idaman yang baik hati dan tampan tu. dan akhirnya kami berkhawin.. dan aku malissa... setiap petang selepas mamat pemalu a.k.a husband aku balik dari kerja.. akan hidangkan secawan kopi plus garam kat laki aku tu. and i know that he liked it sooooo much.

setelah lama berumah tangga kami dikurniakan sepasang anak kembar lelaki dan perempuan. alson and alssey. daniel sangat sayangkan anak-anaknya. bertanggungjawap terhadap kami sekeluarga.. dan tidak pernah mengabaikan perasaan saya walau sekali pun. walaubagaimanapun.. malang tidak berbau... daniel pun meninggal dunia 40 tahun kemudian. dan meninggalkan sepucuk surat buat aku. dalam surat daniel berkata.:

"sayang ku malissa... daniel minta maaf banyak2.. tolong maafkan penipuan seumur hidup daniel ek? ingat tak kali pertama kita bercakap di kedai kopi dan tentang insiden kopi masin? sebenarnya saya sangat gementar dan nervous pada waktu itu.. daniel sebenarnya ingin meminta gula tetapi oleh kerana sangat nervous saya pun terminta garam. so oleh kerana nak control macho.. saya pun teruskan saja dan tak sangka pula kerana insiden tu lah kita mula bercakap.. menjadi kawan baik... dan seterusnya bercinta dan hinggalh saat ini berkhawin dan dikurniakan alson dan alssey. saya berusaha dan ingin memberitahu lissa tentang kebenaran itu.. tapi saya tidak mempunyai kekuatan untuk berbuat demikian. sebenarnya sayang.. saya lansung tak suka lah kopi masin tu! that was a strange bad taste.! and for the whole of my life i've been drinking the salty coffee since i know you. tapi saya tak pernah sekali2 menyesal sepanjang hidup dengan awak... dan saya sangat sayangkan awak hinggakan saat2 terakhir saya tidak dapat memberitahu awak satu kebenaran yang itu. kalau saya diberikan satu peluang lagi.. saya tetap akan memilih awak untuk hidup bersama... walaupun mungkin awak tidak akan pernah terlintas untuk hidup bersama saya... tapi saya sanggup menipu lagi untuk hidup bersama awak sekali lagi. walau saya terpaksa minum kopi masin sekali lagi dalam seumur hidup saya."

aku sangat terharu... sehingga air mataku membuat surat itu basah. dan sekarang apabila orang bertanya...

"malissa.. apakah rasanya salty coffee itu?"

aku akan memberitahu mereka bahawa coffee masin itu....

SANGAT MANIS .

love is not to forget but to forgive, not to see but understand, not to hear but to listen, not to let go but HOLD ON!!!!

A THING bout WOMAN

Ni satu yg sa mau kc kongsi pasal prempuan.. especially sa lah... haha J well i know myself better bha kan2? Saya (perempuan@girls@woman@wanita dan ect) always guna ini ayat2... example:

FINE

This one adalh kata yg slalu girls guna utk menamatkan hujah2 dorang bila dorang rasa dorang betul dan kamu semua (boys) need to shut up! Hahaha.... keep your mouth close and zip lah tu mulut kamurang.. :P ehehehe.... and...... remember don’t ever2 ckap “FINE” utk mngambarkan how they ( the womans ) kelihatan.. sbb.. this will cause you to have one of those ARGUEMENTS. Believe me.

FIVE MINUTE atau LIMA MINIT!

Lima minit??? Guess.... it is equivalent to half an hour..! mcm football matched... yg ada tggl masa lima minit lg masa tamat sbelum kmu kna ready2 pungut smpah n kc bersih sisa2 kamu... so it’s an even trade. If kmu realize and sedar lh. (eeehh.. realize dan sedar????) tell me when this words have the same meaning. Lol..:P

NOTHING

lol... arguements case.... NOTHING means SOMETHING ... and you should be ready and be on your toes.. kekeke.... NOTHING is a common trick la bha tu..:) girls always say NOTHING dgn sengaja mendescribekn perasaan dorang yg kejam yg ingin kamu berasa IN~OUT .. tunggang tebalik n backwards. Haha.. i guess NOTHING is used to signifies that will last for  “FIVE MNUTE”  dan suda tentu akan berakhir dgn “FINE”  hahaha... so girls...... ROFL for us... hehehehe...:)

So boys... if you say GO AHEAD (with your raised eyebrow)



this is dare.. congratulation! Sbb kmu baru saja mmbuat your girls upset and will give you “NOTHING” and end it with “FINE”.!! So.. klu u all.. tia mmg sngaja mau halau gf kamu mninggalkan kamu.. GO AHEAD! Hehe...

GO AHEAD (WITH NORMAL EYEBROWS)

Guys... ini bmksud... ( tia kisahlh apa niat kamu) this mean “I GIVE UP” or... “OKAY.. DO WHATEVER BECAUSE I DONT CARE”  dan kamu akan dapat “GO AHEAD WITH RAISED EYEBROW” dan dlm masa beberapa minit... kmu akan dhidangkan dgn “NOTHING” dan seterusnya “FINE”. Tp....... lpas beberapa minit dorang (girls) will talk with you about “FIVE MINUTE” when she cool down.dan “LOUD SIGHS”  bukan satu perkataan atau ayat... tp kenyataan NON-VERBAL yg kamu(guys) slalu salah faham. When girls do LOUD SIGH .. itu bmaksud  “YOU ARE TRUTH REAL FUCKING IDIOT THIS TIME” and thinking why is she standing and argue dgn ko anout “NOTHING"

SOFT Sigh

ONCE again.. its not a words.. but a NON-VERBAL statement. Yg bmaksud dia akan stay remain cool. And the best yg boleh kamu buat is........... stay still and don’t move... and she will stay cooly moody..:

THAT'S OKAY

Tell you... this is one of the dangerous  statement that woman can do to you all. “THAT’S OKAY” means she want to think hard and need long time sbelum  SERVE you back for what you’ve done..:D. “THAT’S OKAY” slalu kna guna with the words “FINE” with the “EYEBROW RAISED” as a compliment

GO AHEAD

DALAM masa beberapa minit in the near future with the same point. You guys akan brada dalam masalah BESAR.! PLEASE DO this is not a statement but an OFFER.  A girls is giving you a change to come up with whatever excuse or reason you have for doing whatever it is that you have done. You have a fair chance with the truth, so be careful and you shouldn't get a "That's Okay”.

THANKS

Seorang wanita berterima kasih. Jangan pengsan. Katakan saja terima kasih kembali. THANKS A LOT ini jauh berbeza dengan "Terima kasih." Seorang wanita akan berkata, "Terima kasih A Lot" ketika dia benar-benar ticked of you. Ini menandakan bahawa anda telah menyinggung dia dalam beberapa cara berperasaan, dan akan diikuti oleh "Loud Sigh." Berhati-hatilah untuk tidak bertanya apa yang salah selepas "loud sigh” or you will only "NOTHING"

Peace...\/(^^,) no war.

CINTA ABADI~

1989 – saya adalah lepasan graduasi lulusan psikologi.. dan saya telah ditawarkan pekerjaan dia sebuah syarikat. di sana saya mengenali seorang rakan sekerja bernama jun. jun ialah seorang lelaki yang kacak berusia 11 tahun tua dari saya. dia ada seorang yang penyayang dan romantis.. seorang yang berdikari dan mencari nafkah untuk keluarganya. keluarga jun dan saudara yang lain sangat menyukai saya.. bagaimana saya senang berdamping dengan mereka.

1990-jun adalah seorang yang single dan tidak terikat kepada sesiapa.. dan kami telah pun menjalinkan hubungan cinta.. dan saya sangat mencintai jun sebagai mana dia juga sangat mencintai saya. pada akhir tahun 1990 saya telah menerima lamaran jun inging memperisterikan saya. malangnya keluarga saya tidak menyetujui hubungan kami dan tidak merestui saya berkhawin dengan jun.

1991 - pada awal tahun 1991.. orang tua saya telah mengambil tindakan drastik memaksa saya meninggalkan kerja saya untuk memisahkan saya dengan jun. ayah saya yang juga seorang anggota tentera mengancam jun untuk menjauhi saya.. memendekkan cerita.. saya meninggalkan pekerjaan saya dan kehilangan jejak jun. saya meneruskan kehidupan saya dan sedaya upaya menyibukkan diri dengan bisnes keluarga dan cuba melupakan jun.

1994 - pada pagi 2 jun 1994.. saya telah menerima satu telegram daripada anti mary iaitu anti kepada jun.. di dalam telegram tersebut anti mary menyatakan bahawa jun suda meninggal dunia sehari sebelum ( 1 jun 1994). saya sangat terkejut dan tidak percaya.. dan segera menelefon anti mary untuk mendapatkan pengesahan. saya sangat terkeju mendengar pengesahan tersebut. anti mary memberitahu saya bahawa.. ketika saya dan jun berpisah.. jun telah berhenti kerja dan jun sangat kecewa dan mabuk berat setiap malam. jun tidak mempedulikan keadaan tubuh badan dan kesihatan beliau.dan pada 1 jun 1994 jun telah mati mengejut disebabkan pneunomia..

"kau tahu.. jun setiap hari mengatakan bahawa dia masi terlalu sangat mencintai kau. malah pada saat-saat terakhirnya beliau menderita delirium.. jun sangat berharap agar dapat berjumpa untuk kali terakhir dengan kau dan memberitahu kau dia sangat mencintai kau." kata anti mary.



pada hari itu saya meminta kebenaran orang tua saya untuk pergi ke hari pengemubian jun. malangnya orang tua saya yang tidak berperikemanusian itu tidak membenarkan saya keluar dari ruma dan telah mengurung saya. saya hanya mampu menangis dan meratapi kepergian jun secara senyap-senyap di dalam bilik saya. betapa Tuhan saja yang tahu betapa saya ingin meratap wajah jun buat kali terakhir. malah ada satu saat saya mulai meyakinkan diri bahawa jun belum mati.

1995- pada januari 1995, tepat sbelum hari jadi sy... jun melawat sy dalam mimpi... sy berada d hospital dan sedang memakai gaun org sakit.. dan sedang duduk d lantai dan bsandar pada katil tempat tidur. Dan jun dtg..... memakai baju serba putih.. dan dia bkata kpada sy.

Dia menyanyikan saya sebuah lagu kegemaran saya.. menenangkan saya.. dan menyelubungi saya dengan cahaya terang. saya berasa sangat bahagia dan gembira.

tiba-tiba satu suara mengganggu kebahagian saya.. suara itu memanggil nama jun.

"suda sampai masanya saya harus pergi" kata jun

"tapi bagaimana dengan saya jun?" air mata saya mengalir lagi.

“saya akan berada di sini selalu.. dan saya akan menunggu di sana..dan janganlah lupa bahawa saya sangat mencintai anda”



dan mghilangkan diri.. sejurus kemudian.

saya bangun dari tidur dan menangis seharian.... sejak hari itu sya menerima hakikat bahawa jun suda pergi dan meneruskan kehidupan saya. saya akan selalu mengingati bahawa jun ada di samping saya.. dan dia masi setia menunggu saya d sana.

" saya tidak pergi dari kamu.. malah sesungguhnya masih sangat mencintai kamu.. kamu harus menerima hakikat bahawa saya suda mati! tapi tidak bermakna saya suda meninggalkan kamu.. saya akan selalu berada di sisi kamu.. memerhati dan melindungi kamu" kata jun.

air mata mengalir dan jatuh ke pipi sy.......

“sy minta maaf kerna sy tidak mmpunyai kekuatan utk mempertahankan perhubungan kita”

LOVING an IMPERFECT person~

They have been married for two years. He loves literature and often posts his work on the net, but nobody ever reads them. He is also into photography and he handles their wedding photos. He loves her very much. Likewise with her. She has a quick temper and always bullies him. He is a gentleman and always gives in to her.

Today, she's being willful again.



Her: "Why can't you be the photographer for my friend's wedding? She promised she'd pay."Him: "I don't have time that day."Her: "Humph!"

Him: "Huh?"Her: "Don't have time? Write less of those novels, and you will have all the time you need."Him: "I... someone will definitely recognize my work some day."

Her: "Humph! I don't care, you'll have to do it for her!"

Him: "No."

Her: "Just this once?"

Him: "No."



Negotiation's broken. So, she gave the final warning: "Give me a Yes within three days, or else..."

First day, she "withheld" the kitchen, bathroom, computer, refrigerator, television, hi-fi... Except the double bed, to show her "benevolence".

Of course, she has to sleep on it too. He didn't mind, as he still has some cash in his pockets.

Second day, she conducted a raid and removed everything from his pockets and warned, "Seek any external help, and you bear the consequences."

He's nervous now. That night, on the bed, he begs for mercy, hoping that she'll end this state. She doesn't give a damn. No way am I giving in, whatever he says. Until he agrees.

Third day, night. On the bed. He's lying on the bed, looking to one side. She's lying on the bed, looking to the other side.



Him: "We need to talk."

Her: "Unless it's about the wedding, forget it."

Him: "It's something very important."



She remains silent.



Him:"Let's get a divorce."



She did not believe her ears.



Him: "I got to know a girl."



She's totally angry, and wanted to hit him. But she held it down, wanting to let him finish. But her eyes already felt wet. He took a photo out from his chest. Probably from his undershirt pocket, that's the only place she didn't go through yesterday. How careless.



Him: "She's a nice girl."



Her tears fell.



Him: "She has a good personality too."



She's heartbroken because he puts a photo of some other girl close to his heart.



Him: "She says that she'll support me fully in my pursue for literature after we got married."



She's very jealous because she said the same thing in the past.



Him: "She loves me truly."



She wishes to sit up and scream at him "Don't I?"



Him: "So, I think she won't force me to do something that I don't want to do."



She's thinking, but the rage won't subside.



Him: "Want to take a look at the photo I took for her?" Her:





He brings the photo before her eyes. She's in a total rage, hits his hand away and leaves a burning slap on his face.

He sighs. She cries.

He puts the photo back to his pocket. She pulls her hand back under the blanket.

He turns off the light, and sleeps. She turns on the light, and sits up. He's asleep. She lost sleep. She regrets treating him the way she treated him.

She cried again, and thought about a lot of things. She wants to wake him up. She wants to have a intimate talk with him. She doesn't want to push him anymore. She stares at his chest. She wants to see how the girl looks.

She slips the photo out. She wanted to cry and she wanted to laugh.

It's a nicely taken photo. A photo he took for her. She bends down, and kissed him on his cheek.

He smiled. He was just pretending to be asleep.



"You learn to love, not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."

CUTE LOVE STORY~

One night a guy dropped his girlfriend at her home.

As they were about to wish each other goodnight at the front door, the guy started feeling a little in the mood. With an air of confidence, he leaned with his hand against the wall and smiling, he said to her

"Honey, would you give me a kiss ?"



Horrified, she replied, "Are you mad? My parents will see us!"



" Oh come on! Who's gonna see us at this hour?"

He asked grinning at her.

" No, please. Can you imagine if we get caught?"

"Oh come on!There's nobody around, they're all sleeping!".



" No way, it's just too risky!"



"Oh please, please, I love you so much?!?".



" No, no, and no. I love you too, but I just can't!".



"Oh yes you can. Please?"



" No, no. I just can't" " I'm begging you ... "



Out of the blue, the light on the stairs went on, and





The girl's elder sister showed up in her pajamas, hair dishevelled,

And in a sleepy voice she said,





" Dad says to go ahead and give him a kiss, or I can do it. Or if need

Be, mom says she can come down herself and do it, but for God's sake and all of ours....





TELL HIM TO TAKE HIS HAND OFF THE DOOR BELL ........ "

CUTE LOVE STORY~

10th grade



As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.



11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. Senior year

The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.



Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.



A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.



Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.