Wednesday, 30 March 2011

the past.. future.. today.. yesterday and tomorow!

Remember the past, plan for the future, but live for today, because yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come. Did i ever told you that i am a successfull@sucks dreamer?
Well check this out; i want:

1. At least five people in this world love me so much they would die for me.

2. At least fifteen people in this world love me in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate me is because they want to be just like me.

4. A smile from me can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like me.

5. Every night, someone thinks about me before they go to sleep.

6. To mean the world to someone.

7. If not for me, someone may not be living.

8. Someone thinks that i am special and unique.

9. Someone that i don't even know exists loves me.

10. When i make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

11. When i think the world has turned its back on me, take a look: i most likely turned my back on the world.

12. When i think i’ve no chance of getting what i want, i probably won't get it, but if i believe in myself, probably, sooner or later, i will get it.

13. Always remember the compliments i’ve received. And Forget the rude remarks.

14. To have courage to tell soemone how i feel about them; then i will feel much better when they know.

15. To  have a great friend, and slowly take the time to let them know that they are great and hoping the friends will wait until the times come..
There will be a little truth behind my every [just kidding],a little curiosity behind every [just wondering],a little knowledge behind every [i don’t know], and a little emotion behind every [i don’t care]. i rather Being sad with the right people is better than being happy with the wrong ones. sometimes i see the life i want and it always crosses my mind that it isn't gonna turn out that way but still i will NEVER regret the things that made me SMILE cause  That means i've stood up for something in my life! I Laugh a lot and hoping that good sense of humor can cures almost all of my life's illness.i never seems to week cause i pretend to be so brave and strong even if im not.. cause no one will see the different.for me life just  too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So i will love every person that treat me right, and forget about the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If only i have a chance.. then i’ll take it.. and just let it when it changes my life.. it wouldn’t be that easy but i think it worth it.. isn’t? Some quotes said “Dream as if u’ll live forever and live as u'll die today”.. is it possible for turning back all passing minute all around?
As i grow up and i learn to not hoping for the life to being fair.. accepting all things that come.. and learn that Just because it's not the things that i was expect it to be, it doesn't mean it was not the ‘everything’ that i’ve waiting for..  sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past .. stop planning the future .. stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel .. stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel and sometimes we just have to go with "whatever..happens..happens" let it be... let it be.... J
Im not a totally pretender.. but sometimes pretend makes better... i like to pretend that im okay cause when people see and believe that im fine.. sometimes its makes me forget for a while that im not.. even most of the time it doesnt.. we can choose to think for better and not to think for worse.. we are young for once in a life time.. but we can be immature forever..
From the past i learnt that something that i’ve done may gives me heartache in the future.. i learnt that we don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change! And either me and my best friend do or doesn’t do anything we still have good time together! I learn how i should be responsible for the things i’ve done no matter how its hurt.. and control your attitude or it will control you instead.. and how i have the right to be angry but it doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.. cause we don’t know that sometimes.. the people that we expect to kick us down was the people who will help us to stand.. and it wass funny when i can keep goin long after i think i cant at all...

i was bored!

Somewhere in march
Live to success is to Live with no excuses and love with no regrets.. things change, people change, but it doesn't mean i  forget the past or try to cover it up. It simply means that i’ve move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up... it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be. Because for me Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why it's called the present. I think that the only reason people hold onto memories so tight is because memories are the only things that dont change when everybody else does. We live to have a life and Life isn't about waiting for the storm to's about learning to dance in the rain... life goes on no matter what.. i have to Treasure every moment that i have! And treasure it more because i shared it with someone special, special enough to spend my time with. Because i learn that time waits for no one. i've got to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what i've got, and appriciate what i had. Always forgive, but never forget.i Learn from mistakes, but i never regret it cause regretting something u’ve done makes us stuck.. i’ve to look forward and think forward.. thats how i live my life.. it was hurting me when someone said that my life was priceless.. but i would like people to listen to me someday.. that my life wasn’t a piece of junk and im not only a craps that was useless to anyone.. even craps also can be used sometimes... what am i.. i am human.. i am people.. i am a person.. and i know that i can close my eyes to things that i don't want to see, but i can't close my heart to the things that i don't want to feel at all...Sometimes people can be very bad.. can be really mean...thats why i Never allow someone be my priority while im just their option.. maybe it was my fault.... i don't take life too serious coz i’ll never escape it alive anyway.. here is my stupid thinking again.. Funny things can turns bad...... but it does how hello always ends with a good memories can start to make me forever never really seems to much i’ve lose if i forgot about my friends can just leave me when i was when i need someone but they’re never i change and think i’am so much many lies can be packed in one "love letter" i forgive even though i can't one night can contain so much regret...and how ironic life turns out to be..but the funniest part of all, none of that’s funny to me.

Tuesday, 29 March 2011

i was thinking... how hard it was to live!

30.march. 2011 (happy Wednesday)
Once again i was sit n thinking... how life had teach me..... As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.when i look back to my pass few year... i’ve been in love and i found It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.But what is more painful is to love someone and never

find the courage to let that person know how you feel and a truly  sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you,was only to find out in the end that it was

never meant to be and you just have to let go. . that It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it

maybe takes a lifetime to forget someone.
Sometimes i ask my self..... why i was born for to be me.. and how i have to choose the very right way to live.... i want to be success.. i want to be rich.. n so on.. but u know what... . Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do. .because i was the happiest people that don't necessarily have the best of everything but i just make the most of everything that comes along my way and will never regret the thing i learn to live... that i earn and the memories i achieve.. the tears..sadness and the pain that cut through my heart and brain. What it was for to live when you don’t know how to appreciate life and people surrounding you... hey! The only things i want was people to understand me..... .so “Always put yourself in the other's shoes.”  If you feel that it

hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.. .and It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. My life- it’s about friendship.. loves.. family.. and live.. and ect.
For me.. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. . and Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day

seem bright.. then that was a true friend! . A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may

heal and bless.. we don’t live to being affront.. we doesn’t live to being insulted.. and you people doesn’t deserve to look down upon me.. because when i am nothing ask your self if you are someone... and think before you talk because i might be someone somewhere in your life..
Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying. So just live your life.......


Saturday, 12 March 2011

complicated plus complicated!!


 ya it does matter!! it does really matter.....

myb it was joke!! but sometimes we do meant it.. arent we??

not all people can say the truth bout how their feeling was...

but they do can tell n share bout it in various way...

we keeping in touch..

we dont want to ruin such a beautifull friendship....

i do not want to...

gotta keep the wall between us..

gotta go sometimes..

coz friends even best friend will normally

gone for a days.. a weeks... a months... sometimes a years..

before they make it up back...

i just wanna make it stay last longer...

i do wanna stay forever like this..

bout i do know my self better than you..

n i know how hard it would be for me..

keeping it inside.. even somedays will break the truth out loud..

it does matter..

but sometimes matter things makes we have to make it to be the things that doesnt matter at all....

we human.... we protect our heart..

mybe u wont cry today.... but it doesnt mean u wont tomorrow..

it was fucking idiotly passed through ur mind

n u just simply say DAMN!

could it be easier to make the matter thing that make u feel damn to a 'doesnt matter thing that will make those damn feeling stay out from u'????

sometimes we dont understand why...

thats why we always wondering why..

thats why there was a reason for all thing that happen..

if there was a things that you all dont wanna it to go away from you....

you dont want to lose it.... and you want it forever stay close..

why dont just say "dont go.. i want you near"

or "please stay"..

not everyone can understand each other..

just like... i dont understand what u're thinking..

n u dont understand mine thingking..

but both are trying to understand.. but no one wanna teach you how to understand their self..

its make people missunderstood each others...

sometimes people fight...

but the type of of person i am was....

we'll fight today..

n make it up again tomorrow..

isnt its good... to shout out each others on the day before

the morning you wake up n send a good morning text..

and we each other laughing on that nonsense things

that we mad at..?

if i had ever say i'll go... dont be down people..

i told you early.. so that you can try to make me stay...

or should i said...

"if you dont want me to be gone... then please make me stay.."

but please dont ask me to stay.. coz i'll ask why i should stay....

n u'll never got the truth answer...

then making such words you promises..

a promises that u'll break!

dont ask me to.. but make me to...

but sometimes..

there's people who wait until the things gone...

then wait.. n do nothing... n regret..

there's people who just plan to make it but the things suddenly gone..

gosh!! we dont know how long the oppurtinity will stay..

dont waste the time given.....

sometimes.... being straight to the point helps alot...

coz not everyone can get what u mean from the way u act...

or.. from the words you say..

or.. from the things you do..

it just too complicated

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