sick!!~ II

days ago, when I was pretty sick with a bad flare-up of heartache and headache!~ catch cold..with the feeling unable to leave the house.. i wake up late take bath and walk to work!~ there a few moment that i hope i dont need to walk!~ lol... theres no either one friend or family of mine would call once in a while to say, “im goin out.. Can I buy some food for you?”simple offer that could filled me with love. but well.. i was alone.. n im used to it! hahaha.....i wonder if someone call me.. talk to me sometimes i'll not feel this "lonely" lol... sweet loneliness!~ but i guess being take care of.. hmm.... 


so i have my "not really well damn" day with loneliness!~ pain!~ bitter..!~ lol..~ 
since i hated medicine so much!!~ i wont take any.. i prefer water alot.. alot alot! but good things bout being sick was... sleep early and think less.!~ hahaahaha..


no medicine!!~

The way to love anything is to realize that it may be lost!~

the way to love anything is to realize that it may be lost..:) 
lost!~ should i let you in my heart!~ wishing that i can have and keep you forever? la~ la~ la~ .. hahahaha....


why did i do that? yeah..
thousand reason to make we hope.... and thousand things can break it tho... irrisistible desire to be irrisistible desire..!~ 


theres a feeling that i dont know how to describe.. something icy then turns to salty!~ err.. sweet.. bitter then salty!!~ salty!~ and i dont like even 1 things bout this feeling..~ poet!~


fire!!~